Friday, May 22, 2009

falling on deaf ears...

i have a friend who told me that he doesnt open up because at a time when he needed someone the most, no one was there for him. i understand that can be one of the most terrible things someone can do to another friend. but as a friend and i do believe that apologies are in order. with recents events affecting my friend and certain conversations we've had, ive learned that trust is a big deal to him. without gettin too much into detail, lets just say a loss of trust ended a possibly good friendship for him. now back to my original point. the main event, that brought forth his present behavior, the fact that he had no one at his time of need.
now i call out for my friends. unlike my other friend, im not holding on to one situation or blaming my lack of trust on anyone. im forgiving and always willing to give things a second chance.
i only say this cuz im at that point and time. one of my trusted friends is out of town, another doesnt live anywhere close, my best friend is in florida, and one of my last resorts doesnt even answer his phone. with the exception of the one who decides when they want to answer their phone, the other 3 have their own businesses n lives to take care of. tell you the truth i dont get down on myself this often anymore. but the few times i do i wish that i could have my friends here with me.
i honestly dont kno whats my deal the last few days. i just dont feel myself. i'll figure it out. i always do.

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