Friday, October 23, 2009

uncomfortably numb....

this whole day, ive been uneasy and honestly i dont know what im uneasy about. my night was great last night, i slept early all that. but and overwhelming blanket of dread took over, beens like this since the AM. i know its a collection of things, just not shure what those all are, it would help if i can decipher it, analyze it, nip it in the bud. i have a hunch, but i really want my hunches to be wrong(i have a 3-0 winning record, where i dont want to win again)
well up until bout right now, 5 mins ago i was extreamly sad...NOW, im mad.
see i dont understand people these days, this convo is a throwback to "never bite the hand that feeds you"
people are trying to help, you never have to do whatever they say, but if they care about you, they are just giving u the best possible way to fix something. but if u are TOO STOOPID to listen, soo be it. and remember you arent the only person in teh situation, believe it or not, you are affecting hella peoples lives! soo think about that shit! but i dont understand this glorification of struggle n low level to hi level promotion. fuck, if its there for you TAKE IT. dont lower yourself, to make ur story sound pityful n full of struggle. ive been thru that and personally i wouldnt want to look back. ive been in that struggle and been thru SHIT you dont even know about ME youngster! and honestly i dont believe a single word u say...why? cuz i DONT FUCKIN STUTTA WHEN I TALK AFTER I GET CAUGHT IN A LIE. and you know what, this whole issue doesnt envolve me, but you know what, fuck with my friends/fam IM ALL IN YOUR FACE...yea and SINCE YOU DONT FUCKIN KNOW ME...you'll learn the real me...soo shut the fuck up n get the fuck outta here!

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