Negatives to Positives to Negatives

if anything in this life that ive learned is that everyone is NOT CREATED equal, we are all our own individual-selves. what may work for one person may not work for me. im not going to lie, im depressed, im misrable. and yes i get it, people dont like to see me like this. but thru it all ive always have a small tiny bit of positivity. why? Hope. hope...positive and negative. i know you all think im a crazy person, my logic has been overshadowed by my emotions. and im letting it.
to feel love, not matter how much the rejection the heartbreak that it might end in, but to feel it for the split second is better than any feeling in the whole world. im honestly jealous of people who are in love, you feel it, or should feel it all the time.
if it seems like i fall in love soo fast, thats not the case. its because i want to fall in love i want to give it all. why give less than what i have. and believe me i have a lot of love stored up.
alls im saying is let me believe let me hope, cuz in the end one day it'll all be for the better. one day.

The world turns its back on me...

When you smiled you had my undivided attention. When you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you. When you cried you had my urge to hold you. When you said you loved me, you had my heart forever.

for the Umpteenth time....

im back on the salad diet. uppin the workin out. personally, im really not doing it for my health. but i dont wanna be one of the millions of overweight americans who MUST, purchase two tickets if they cant fit in one chair, who MUST shop at XL stores and purchase XXXXL clothings. or be forced to pay thousands in medical bills, or even to be laughed at by young kids on the bus...
while neither of these things i am close too...my reason, Vanity. i just wanna fit into my skinny jeans? word?
now i know that eating right isnt the whole shabang to get into my H&M skinny jeans...a workout is definately needed. so if anyone has an effective workouts i'll take it...sooo far right now im running again, kinda afraid to go to the gym...cuz everyone is puttin in their 15 mins of resolution time. i'll go when everyone breaks their resolutions.

QUOTE!!

Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. . . . It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more.
-- Erica Jong

Cheers

.....i think i love her....










ummm, yea i do

the 1st

i only want to tell you that i love you
i only want to tell you that i care
i want to spend time with you, but things just get in the way
im fearful of what others will say
im afraid that im not what you want
i dont want to be those other guys
i only want to make you happy
as you make me feel