Public Transportation

so last night i fell asleep relatively early for a 25 year old.....8:(fuckin) 30pm....thats shit was like middle of prime time TV. whats most disappointin about that is that i was planning to watch the new episode of prolly the only TV show i really follw, Entourage. sooo, i fall asleep at 8:30, laptop on my lap, phone slowing dying. i wake up in the middle of the night, bout 12:30am to my TV on and some obscure HBO/softcore/real sex/documentary show, realizing i missed Entourage. then lookin at my computer and seeing that i had about a dozen missed IM's. from actual people of importance. so unknowingly i responded to everyone who IM'd me. not caring if they were asleep or not. a few responded. i procceed to attempt to fall asleep...but engaged in light conversation with a few people left on AIM. the movie, Rememeber the Titans was on. this tharwted all my effort to fall back asleep. fastforward. the movie ended around 2:30am. i get up at 5. so i said fuck it...stayed up, till 5 got ready for work and jumped on bart.
this has been the earliest ive been to work in weeks. sittin on bart lookin at the drab faces on the much much much! older people on the train i realized, "hey, everyone lighten the fuck up" it does have a depressing tone to it, public transportation. as if all were riding a train to their doom, of which they call the "daily grind". as i do when im on the train, i practice something i call "back paper reading" as one is reading a paper, i read the front page from my seat without bothering the original reader. here i learn of the Raiders Coach, being fired...some other shit...and the buget..more economic stuff.
looking around i feel that familar feeling....i am the youngest one on the train. as i have delt with many other things in my life, yet again im the youngest. i remember takin diabetic diet classes again being the youngest. it a little bit of a double edged sword. yes, things are lifting because im forced to be much "older" than i perceive myself...but where are the people my age, and why am i forced into a situation where i am odd man out??

fuckin public transportation........


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