christmas is next week , ive only bought 2 presents...and still got a shit load more to get. once again i'd like to explain about my gift giving practices. i really dont expect to get anything for xmas. actually i got the best present ever for my birthday this year, all my good friends came out to celebrate my birthday last night, i had fun at that and was very happy. then again...i dont expect anything cuz usually the stuff i want has no monetary value...or has really HIGH monetary value. just hanging out with me, is gift enuff, but if u do want to get me something, get me something that i can use, like i can use some gloves cuz its cold as shit now. i also do like personalized things. in that sense, please dont feel that you are required to get me anything if i got you something. and if that present i got you was a lil expensive. its prolly cuz it was and you mean alot to me, so you deserve it! and always remember if i can afford it, i'll get it for you, so dont worry im not dippin into my "college" fund or anything, its in my budget! the best present you guys can ever get me, is just spending time with me....honestly. or even GO TO SOME OF MY GIGS!
with that said
so its come that time that i do my year in review. cant say that this year has been a learning year, but my whole life has be a learning experience. i think i just had to deal with more adult situations this year. different experiences different ways of dealing with them. thats the only way i can really put it.
some say ive been un-nessesarily stressin myself, which can be true to an extent, but as i think of it, it wouldnt be as important to me if i wasnt stressing thru it. all in all, i can SIT here and say that i made it thru and that old saying that runs thru my head repeats: "nothing in this life is that hard".
dont get me wrong this year wasnt a year for complaining and issues....ive had soo much fun and success this year.
nothing recessed. my djing gigs got better, my relationships with the right people got closer, i found out who my real friends are...
its been a great life, i really shouldnt complain. about anything, its my life and should be lived as how i want to live it, not for anyone else.
in the relationship department, i fell in love with someone. i really only wanted to see where it could go...but that developed into love. not a day goes by where i dont think bout her. im trying my best to hide it, havent told her. im guessing she has a clue cuz shes a smart girl. i enjoy my time that im with her, i try to soak up every moment. i love when i get texts or calls from her about her day. i just hope she feels the same way. but like i said im terrified to say something, just cuz shes such a good friend and i wouldnt want to lose that or mess that up. but we'll see, im aiming to say something before the end of the year. i dont want to bulid myself up on this, but its just something ive been puttin off for too long.
soo i look forward to a good year this year, look forward to gettin better gigs, traveling some more, and going to disneyworld for the first time. i like to go into each year with a positive attitude and that makes all the difference. i hope i made a lasting impact on all your lives this year, i hope i was the friend you want me to be or expected me to be. if not i'll try harder. take care, merry christmas and happy new year!
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Lonely at the top....
but its crowded at the bottom....
fuck it, if i gotta do this alone i'll fuckin do it!
grudges are overrated indeed, if you want to fucks with it...holla at me...we can fucks with it...
im moving on...with or without any of you.
everyone GROW THE FUCK UP!
one-HUNDRED
fuck it, if i gotta do this alone i'll fuckin do it!
grudges are overrated indeed, if you want to fucks with it...holla at me...we can fucks with it...
im moving on...with or without any of you.
everyone GROW THE FUCK UP!
one-HUNDRED
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
SEX, LIES, AND VIDEOTA...uh...DVDs
i will attempt to write this as professional sounding and whitty as i can be, but if i stray please excuse me.
if theres anything i hate most in life...is when people lie to me. or lying in general. as many of you close friends of mine know, id rather face the music as its playing versus hearing it after the smoke has settled. it could involve many things, business, personal, relationship. tell me up front, i would like to think that im the type of person anyone can talk to. but sometimes, not often, im told that people are afraid to tell me things or disclose info, because of my reaction. but the werid irony in all this, is often im afraid to tell disclose info often because of that reason also, not knowing the outcome. im workin on trying not to be like that, but i am always open to be told something, then i can disagree with you after. but i like dealing with things in the front and worst of all is eventually hearing the truth from someone else. it hurts even more if that person you consider a close friend, but basically my point is. i dont being lied to and i usually have a hunch about it.....
now branchin off....i dont like shit talked behind my back. AS MUCH as i hate being lied to...or even being ignored...EVERYONE has resentment for someone talkin behind your back. its a bad idea to do it with me, because i have peoples everywhere AND I WILL find out.
with that said. i do not appreciate people who are all talk. talk talk talk....in certain situations in my life ive encountered these people that society considers "flakers". when u say you kno someone or you're gonna do something...AROUND ME YOU BETTER FUCKIN DO IT. as ive repeated many times, i once had this friend, who taught me that to be more of a man of my word, rather than a man of my speak. say you gonna do something. better do it! eventually i learned that he was the biggest woofer in the world (lier). there was another werid irony with that too, someone who prolly taught me one of the best lessons in life, actually turned out to be the opposite of what he was preaching. real life example: if u say you know someone and blah blah blah they wanna give u a handjob...blah blah and ya'll are gay for each other...dont u think you get their name? especially if they are somewhat important to what you are doing. SECOND: if you say you know someone and that you guys are cool and talk all the time....why is it when your name is brought up...they have NO idea who u are....they dont even give me that fake ass "oh wait, yea i think ive heard of them" speach. when they just straight up say "who?". THAT IS NOT KNOWING SOMEONE.
i dont wanna name drop and such....but im not...but a recent outtin i had in San Jose...i was introduced as "hey (insert famous name here), this is (insert another famous name) FRIEND". and i dont care if they were lying or not....but i got that bullshit answer of "oh yea man, ive heard of you...blah blah blah". generic answer, but it wasnt even like..."who" what do u do? this person of some sort of fame, knew who i was and knew what i did.
example: when i got back into clubs. and i was spinnin at club NV....some strange lil girl came up to me @ the dj booth. "both saying, hey i know you....you're pretty good!" lets face it, i just got back into djing....so i wasnt the shit or nething. but apparently i was...."so she goes you're CMC right?" any who that girl turned out to be the Mixtress.
so in recent events in my life...and business. ive found that some people just consider this business a joke. joking around. i kno i said id keep it light. but ive seen the light, ive seen the potential. and we all gotta tighten our belts. if ya'll arent ready, you see the door. also theres alot of people here that believe that they have authority over me. i have final say in anything...and everyone DOES NOT...REPEAT DOES NOT NEED TO BE KNOWING WHAT IM DOING. so DONT BE MAD, when one of YOUR FRIENDS come to me to talk business, cuz obviously you dont got that game...like my cuz said, i appologize right now that i got sooo much game!
with that said. i also dont like when some aquaintances talk shit about my REAL friends. forreal. i resepect my true friends for having my back and respecting my decisions in the group, life whatever. i already kno who my real friends are. and who the fake ones were. so i really dont appreciate ya'll talkin shit TO my friends over some shit YOU didnt do. just talk shit about me and you'll see who has my back. which is something i cant control or hold back. cant blame my friends and family for what they wanna do to you, SO PRAY...PRAY THEY DONT FIND OUT.
uh...so pissed...i'll get over it.
if theres anything i hate most in life...is when people lie to me. or lying in general. as many of you close friends of mine know, id rather face the music as its playing versus hearing it after the smoke has settled. it could involve many things, business, personal, relationship. tell me up front, i would like to think that im the type of person anyone can talk to. but sometimes, not often, im told that people are afraid to tell me things or disclose info, because of my reaction. but the werid irony in all this, is often im afraid to tell disclose info often because of that reason also, not knowing the outcome. im workin on trying not to be like that, but i am always open to be told something, then i can disagree with you after. but i like dealing with things in the front and worst of all is eventually hearing the truth from someone else. it hurts even more if that person you consider a close friend, but basically my point is. i dont being lied to and i usually have a hunch about it.....
now branchin off....i dont like shit talked behind my back. AS MUCH as i hate being lied to...or even being ignored...EVERYONE has resentment for someone talkin behind your back. its a bad idea to do it with me, because i have peoples everywhere AND I WILL find out.
with that said. i do not appreciate people who are all talk. talk talk talk....in certain situations in my life ive encountered these people that society considers "flakers". when u say you kno someone or you're gonna do something...AROUND ME YOU BETTER FUCKIN DO IT. as ive repeated many times, i once had this friend, who taught me that to be more of a man of my word, rather than a man of my speak. say you gonna do something. better do it! eventually i learned that he was the biggest woofer in the world (lier). there was another werid irony with that too, someone who prolly taught me one of the best lessons in life, actually turned out to be the opposite of what he was preaching. real life example: if u say you know someone and blah blah blah they wanna give u a handjob...blah blah and ya'll are gay for each other...dont u think you get their name? especially if they are somewhat important to what you are doing. SECOND: if you say you know someone and that you guys are cool and talk all the time....why is it when your name is brought up...they have NO idea who u are....they dont even give me that fake ass "oh wait, yea i think ive heard of them" speach. when they just straight up say "who?". THAT IS NOT KNOWING SOMEONE.
i dont wanna name drop and such....but im not...but a recent outtin i had in San Jose...i was introduced as "hey (insert famous name here), this is (insert another famous name) FRIEND". and i dont care if they were lying or not....but i got that bullshit answer of "oh yea man, ive heard of you...blah blah blah". generic answer, but it wasnt even like..."who" what do u do? this person of some sort of fame, knew who i was and knew what i did.
example: when i got back into clubs. and i was spinnin at club NV....some strange lil girl came up to me @ the dj booth. "both saying, hey i know you....you're pretty good!" lets face it, i just got back into djing....so i wasnt the shit or nething. but apparently i was...."so she goes you're CMC right?" any who that girl turned out to be the Mixtress.
so in recent events in my life...and business. ive found that some people just consider this business a joke. joking around. i kno i said id keep it light. but ive seen the light, ive seen the potential. and we all gotta tighten our belts. if ya'll arent ready, you see the door. also theres alot of people here that believe that they have authority over me. i have final say in anything...and everyone DOES NOT...REPEAT DOES NOT NEED TO BE KNOWING WHAT IM DOING. so DONT BE MAD, when one of YOUR FRIENDS come to me to talk business, cuz obviously you dont got that game...like my cuz said, i appologize right now that i got sooo much game!
with that said. i also dont like when some aquaintances talk shit about my REAL friends. forreal. i resepect my true friends for having my back and respecting my decisions in the group, life whatever. i already kno who my real friends are. and who the fake ones were. so i really dont appreciate ya'll talkin shit TO my friends over some shit YOU didnt do. just talk shit about me and you'll see who has my back. which is something i cant control or hold back. cant blame my friends and family for what they wanna do to you, SO PRAY...PRAY THEY DONT FIND OUT.
uh...so pissed...i'll get over it.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Baby its cold outside....
so this morning i was listening to "baby its cold outside" on koit. this song sounds very much like a predator song. so if ya'll havent heard it, its a duet with a man and woman. and the guy is trying to get the girl to stay at his place a lil longer. and if u havent heard it hes laying it on thick!!! my issue is, that she says that her mother would worry. if shes an older, wouldnt her mom NOT care. so im thinkin this is a young girl and this is some creepy old doode trying to seduce her. haha none the less i like the song still.
so the holidays are in full swing. if you dont kno, i love the holidays, not cuz of the fact of all the gifts you get, (which i dont)...just reminds me of all the better times way back when CMC was just lower-case cmc. so this past black FRIEDay...i went to the mall, later in the day, to avoid the crowds. boy i was wrong. but, i shopped for myself. bought me a brand new BLACKBERRY BOLD. best fuckin choice of phone i could have gotten. shouts to Harold, for hookin it up.
lately ive been pondering this quote someone once told me "people say you cant do something are just admitting that they cant do it themselves." basically saying, peoples that say you cant be this person or you cant do that, are basically saying they themselves can acheive it, so they try to bring you down to their level in saying that. i think ive become a more positive person as ive grown. i will admit, there is some shit i still cant face. but im fight to try to do it. i try not to have "i cant" in my venacular. i was having a convo with Abi, just now, about this club 33 bizz out in disneyland. if ya'll dont kno, im fuckin a big ass fan of disneyland/disney all that. im gay for disney basically. theres this exclusive club in disneyland thats just for ballerific peoples, and i told her we're going one day. ya'll kno i aint ballerific right NOW. but one day, i'll take her there....hahaha i think she thinks i was joking. but if ya'll kno me if i say something, i USUALLY go thru with it. might not be immediately, but it will happen. its werid i learned this from a friend thats no longer my friend. he told me the one thing that he despised was people who flaked or people who talked the talk, but never walked it! i try my best to do what i say imma do. i dont kno my plan of attack at the moment, but it'll happen.
merry christian ya'll!
so the holidays are in full swing. if you dont kno, i love the holidays, not cuz of the fact of all the gifts you get, (which i dont)...just reminds me of all the better times way back when CMC was just lower-case cmc. so this past black FRIEDay...i went to the mall, later in the day, to avoid the crowds. boy i was wrong. but, i shopped for myself. bought me a brand new BLACKBERRY BOLD. best fuckin choice of phone i could have gotten. shouts to Harold, for hookin it up.
lately ive been pondering this quote someone once told me "people say you cant do something are just admitting that they cant do it themselves." basically saying, peoples that say you cant be this person or you cant do that, are basically saying they themselves can acheive it, so they try to bring you down to their level in saying that. i think ive become a more positive person as ive grown. i will admit, there is some shit i still cant face. but im fight to try to do it. i try not to have "i cant" in my venacular. i was having a convo with Abi, just now, about this club 33 bizz out in disneyland. if ya'll dont kno, im fuckin a big ass fan of disneyland/disney all that. im gay for disney basically. theres this exclusive club in disneyland thats just for ballerific peoples, and i told her we're going one day. ya'll kno i aint ballerific right NOW. but one day, i'll take her there....hahaha i think she thinks i was joking. but if ya'll kno me if i say something, i USUALLY go thru with it. might not be immediately, but it will happen. its werid i learned this from a friend thats no longer my friend. he told me the one thing that he despised was people who flaked or people who talked the talk, but never walked it! i try my best to do what i say imma do. i dont kno my plan of attack at the moment, but it'll happen.
merry christian ya'll!
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