falling on deaf ears...

i have a friend who told me that he doesnt open up because at a time when he needed someone the most, no one was there for him. i understand that can be one of the most terrible things someone can do to another friend. but as a friend and i do believe that apologies are in order. with recents events affecting my friend and certain conversations we've had, ive learned that trust is a big deal to him. without gettin too much into detail, lets just say a loss of trust ended a possibly good friendship for him. now back to my original point. the main event, that brought forth his present behavior, the fact that he had no one at his time of need.
now i call out for my friends. unlike my other friend, im not holding on to one situation or blaming my lack of trust on anyone. im forgiving and always willing to give things a second chance.
i only say this cuz im at that point and time. one of my trusted friends is out of town, another doesnt live anywhere close, my best friend is in florida, and one of my last resorts doesnt even answer his phone. with the exception of the one who decides when they want to answer their phone, the other 3 have their own businesses n lives to take care of. tell you the truth i dont get down on myself this often anymore. but the few times i do i wish that i could have my friends here with me.
i honestly dont kno whats my deal the last few days. i just dont feel myself. i'll figure it out. i always do.

When the strongest fall....

there are times in our lives when we realize, we just arent that person who we all thought we all should be. we freeze up, tense up, stop in our tracks. without explaination we are just not who we are. what happens when the rock, the leader, the corner stone, fall. the leader everyone looks to always know what they are doing and always know where to go the person who is so solid and so shure, becomes that opposite. it happens, the greatest topple from glory.
some people believe its just regressing to a time when we weren't that great leader that everyone looks to.
sooo...im feeling down, not shure why. i need time to marinate on it. but its like when your world is crumbling, the rest of the world is also burns with you. its comforting, but then again, ur suppose to be that person to pull everyone from the fire...
i dunno where im going with this...depressed i suppose

WTF is wrong with florida

granted i have not been to many states, but FLORIDA takes the cake! first off before i even stepped on the place to fly here...ive heard horrible things about this place. first theres sheenas ordeal with the soliciting rapist, then theres stories of that L'Trion Milton stealing his grandma's car and beating her over some chicken wings...the list can go on and on.
i arrive here and its a normal as it can possibly be. kinda warm, so im likin it, but humid. a little overcast, but i can see the stars.
i get here to sheenas spot and next thing you know its storming like crazy!!! raining cats and dogs. then all of a sudden it stops....WTF
i guess im just spoiled with the bay area! well the trip has just started havent seen jacksonville in the day...there is a sonics out here! yeaaah buddy!

VIVA ROCK VEGAS!!

i wasnt that good at compare and contrast essays back in my school-house days. i used to think i covered everything, but my bitch ass english teacher would ALWAYS find something i missed out on. or some other shit...
but today, there is no Bitch ass English teacher...jus my blog and blogger readers.

in lieu of my recent outtin to America's Playground (las vegas) i will contrast and compare the diffrences of the club scene in vegas and here in the bay, you all may think its quite obvious, but its not really.

so i went out this past weekend to las vegas to do a lil partying, do a lil gambling, DJ, and hopefully see the Paquiao fight. i did 3 of the 4. not bad. that was my first time in vegas for a fight night and things were crazy, celebs every where...not to mention Filipinos. ive been to vegas numerous times, but the whole fight night wasnt my main concern. this would be my first time to spin in las vegas. i would say my lil rise to greatness (i joke) was immediately shot to the top. every dj has dreams of spinning for a vegas crowd. i actually had that dream come true, by passing a very important step...DJing in LA.
so for the last few months, ive been refining my style and music that i play to prepare to DJ for this ultimate party crowd.
i will admit i was nervous, even though i had opening set meaing, noone would be there. my friend DDouble reassured me Vegas aint shit...and to tell u the truth, it really wasnt. so i dunno what i was trippin about. i did my thang, and didnt even go into my "vegas set" just rocked it out how i would normally do back here in the bay. NO DIFFERENCE. the owners liked me...the waitresses...i did good!
now the big difference i found about Vegas clubs and bay clubs...Vegas clubs are CHAOS outside, no line, just a clusterfuck of people. buncha douchebags run the door, and if u dont have a mohawk apparently u arent part of security. anywho people here in the bay DONT BE ANGRY for waitin in line...vs vegas...ur not even guaranteed to get in...and its FUCKIN ORGANIZED OUT HERE!!
rule #2...get bottle service. ITS WORTH IT!! even if u got the hook up. this will enshure u a place to sit. leave ur shit, and u dont gotta wait at the bar. plus, if u get a bottle, ur treated as VIP...secret bathrooms, hookups etc...its worth it!
so i was thinkin vegas was all mashups and house music...wrong...honestly theres nothing really that different. the people are all beautiful there. coming back here, i was lookin for hot chicks in their true religion jeans...definately hotter people out there. everyone here looks grumpy and ugly.
soo keep it real, vegas is our playground, but it aint different from home..except for the HOT HOT HOT chicks! back to reality!