time to just let it all out!

this i indirectly related to ALOT of people, so if u feel like im calling you out, im prolly indirectly am. so forewarning, stop reading if u feel the need to retaliate...cuz i just wanted this to be the tell all end all of everything, if you come at me...beleive that i will tear you down soo hard verbally, that you will not want to be seen in public.

my dislikes:
hypocrites, so you say that you hate fake friends, but werent you the one who made friends with someone just so that you can spy on a certain someone. basically you were a fake friend to that person. or try to get in with my family just so you get info from my family. but hello, its my family and they see thru ur bullshit too. shady if you tell me, but what does my opinion count right? you are so self-righteous, you got this right? oh and how you told someone a story about urself, then u switch it up to save-face with another set of people.
regurgitated information....i love how youre just saying what ive always been sayin n u try to turn it on into your words. check with anyone of my friends, they know how i talk. and lets speak about friends again. you think some of these people are ur friends....but when they are laughing litteraly in ur face. not with you but at you, why cuz you DONT know everything. u claimed that you know who i am cuz i shared a few stories, but yet you even twisted those stories up. well you dont know shit about me. and im not gonna be like you and say..."oh i was this person i was that person...blah blah blah" live in the now...be the person who u are now. stop dwelling in the past and stop glorifying your struggle. whoopty fuckin doo, you lived a tough life. but honestly ive lived a tougher life than you, and i got a few years on you. but im not the type to talk about how hard it was, cuz everyones struggles are different and if u cant learn from it your bascially stuck.
and if you are too stoopid to notice that friends were simply concerned, then you deserve all that struggle that you GLORIFY soo much. me ive been thru that hustle and ive lived that life, ive moved on, im a grown-up.
im not perfect, not saying that i am, but what i am perfect in is my ability to learn from my mistakes/struggles.
another thing, my friends n family dont need to lie to me.

soo, post ur millions of meaningless posts. you're sub par ramblings, your hypocritical answers, your plagiarized responses. I'm done with it. i was just angry that you would talk down about my friends and family. this is it, this is all im saying, im not saying anything more. end of story

uncomfortably numb....

this whole day, ive been uneasy and honestly i dont know what im uneasy about. my night was great last night, i slept early all that. but and overwhelming blanket of dread took over, beens like this since the AM. i know its a collection of things, just not shure what those all are, it would help if i can decipher it, analyze it, nip it in the bud. i have a hunch, but i really want my hunches to be wrong(i have a 3-0 winning record, where i dont want to win again)
well up until bout right now, 5 mins ago i was extreamly sad...NOW, im mad.
see i dont understand people these days, this convo is a throwback to "never bite the hand that feeds you"
people are trying to help, you never have to do whatever they say, but if they care about you, they are just giving u the best possible way to fix something. but if u are TOO STOOPID to listen, soo be it. and remember you arent the only person in teh situation, believe it or not, you are affecting hella peoples lives! soo think about that shit! but i dont understand this glorification of struggle n low level to hi level promotion. fuck, if its there for you TAKE IT. dont lower yourself, to make ur story sound pityful n full of struggle. ive been thru that and personally i wouldnt want to look back. ive been in that struggle and been thru SHIT you dont even know about ME youngster! and honestly i dont believe a single word u say...why? cuz i DONT FUCKIN STUTTA WHEN I TALK AFTER I GET CAUGHT IN A LIE. and you know what, this whole issue doesnt envolve me, but you know what, fuck with my friends/fam IM ALL IN YOUR FACE...yea and SINCE YOU DONT FUCKIN KNOW ME...you'll learn the real me...soo shut the fuck up n get the fuck outta here!

WAKIN UP IN VEGAS!

in lue of my vacation in vegas coming up...ive decided to do the unthinkable....
you know the rule of "whatever happens in vegas, stays in vegas" well imma break that rule just a lil bit. im not gonna mention any names, where i can get introuble...but i'll share some of my stories of "wakin up in vegas":

-my first trip there, we stayed at my aunts house, she wasnt there we were just lookin for a place to crash. the last night there we got so drunk, went into the wrong house, but oddly the key opened the neighbors door, walked all the way to the bedroom untill i heard someone say..."whos there" we jetted after that.

-one new year, i traveled down to vegas with dwight, which took like 10 hours. finally got there, dressed up, went out to find that all the clubs were sold out...partied on the strip, our friends show up right before midnight, their cells didnt work, they called us from a pay phone which happened to be right accross the street from us, drank with some strangers on the strip, threw up on the bridge at NYNY...Robby pisses in the hallway, Janine n Robby go drinkin, robby throws a quater at the bartender, gets kicked out...Chris falls alseep next to the door, janine throws up all morning! LOL (thats in a nutshell)

-again in a nutshell: guys trip to vegas, i started drinkin at the airport, almost didnt get on the plane cuz i was soo drunk, lookin hella ragged n non douchebaggy, we jumped the line at Tryst thanks to a friend of mine. dont get home till 5am, sleep at 7, wake up at 10, drink a 24 pack of beer n a bottle of jack, fight a hive of bees/hornets...head back to the strip, walk the whole damn strip for a gawdamn alcohol stick you can BUY anywhere!! went to see Lupe Fiasco (dope concert) amost fought like 3 times, went to Scores...dropped hella cash, got a stripper number, smoked out, lost a memeber of our crew, found him the next day in front of our friends hotel room door....ahhh good times! LOL (gambling inbetween everything)

-trip 2 a month later: Miss America weekend, chicks from various states in ball gowns everywhere. Suite @ the Venitian, first night, kings cup....hotel is trashed! bottle of jack gone, bottle of malibu gone, 2 packs of beer gone. more friends arrive in the morning...10am me n crystal gather up left over beers, mix them n shot gun...10:05 am-im throwin up in the bathroom. head to Tao proceed to get wasted! got back to the suite sleep, next day proceed to molest wax figures at Madame Tussuo's. gamble, one last game of KINGS CUP...i kill two lava sticks of alcohol. soo drunk!

-first paquiao fight: free hot breakfast, free alcohol, FREE SAKE TASTING, DJ'd @ VBar, party @ PriVe...BOTTLE SERVICE PIMPIN! parties with a million n one filipinos and half the bay was in the area!! ULTIMATE! ULTIMATE NETWORKING TRIP...wasted twice...same day...flight @ 8am, which was DELAYED anyway!

sooo just a short quip of my vegas trips, alot more details, but soo much fun, im going 2 weekends in a row. lets see how this goes?!?

BOTTLES UP....CHEERS TO YOU ALL!

its gettin to the point....

often times, we all get to our breakin point. where u just cant take the situation your in and desperate times call for desperate measures. i always wished that when these situations arose in my life that i would come into it with a clear n concise rational. but i cant, im a thinker...a deep one too. i analyze ever possible angle of the situation no matter how obserd it may sound. why? cuz in reality the impossible can happen...i kno you ask yourself "have you ever thought just maybe?" yes yes i have...many times over.
like i said i never wanted to enter this n end it with me making a desperate attempt at something. thats not me. i always wanted it to just "happen" at times i think it is but then i over think n think nothing is happening.
in love in relationships theres a very thin line, timing must be right, attraction must be on point, all the stars have to align.....but then again...it doesnt.
i dont know what point im trying to get accross in this blog, but...i dont want to become the desperate person. i need to make a move n make one fast...


ps-have i ever mentioned that i hate douchebags? well yea i do fuck you!